What Goal?

Today is November 29th. Tomorrow is November 30th, the day I said I would have my novel done by.

Yeah F-ing Right!

I added a couple of chapters, I was sick for a week, had mind block for almost 3 weeks, got over it and started writing again...and now I'm so overwhelmed with the volume of work I have to get done in a short period of time that I have had no time to write.

Since I added two chapters my new Goal date should be the 14th of December… But I haven't even finished chapter 10 yet. I know I'm trying to do too much at once. Work is overwhelming because of all the stuff I have to re-do. I'm taking over for someone who did not keep good records and so I have to go through and try and make sense out of someone else's mess.
I've felt overwhelmed lately. I haven't written in a week. I feel like I'm getting no where at work.

So I have two weeks…. And I will tell you right now my novel will not be done. By 22nd, things at work should calm down enough for me to wrap my head around writing again. You are probably wondering why it's so hard. "can't you just leave work at work, and go home and write?" No, and its because of my personality. I stress. I stress over little things. I'm not vocal about it, in some cases, people have been surprise when I finally tell them I'm stressing about something. So all this crap at work has bogged me down emotionally, and I can’t get into my novel because I need an escape. I've been reading, watching movies, because I need to escape from the crap.. Not get more emotionally involved in something else. Not create an escape for someone else.

I guarantee nothing right now. I can't give you a new time line. I can't even say that my novel will be done by my birthday (which is in January sometime). All I can say is:

I hate not writing, and as soon as I'm able I will get back to it… but not right now.

Dust